gemini girl -Just cz I'm working with a 1st House mostly in the Gemini Cusp (I've got Taurus Ascendant at 29.50 Degrees), I can really relate to what you are saying!!
Remember that Salvador Dali painting I posted not long ago? - ("The Persistence of Memory") .... ?
Where the clocks look like they are melting ... time has a way of doing that, and I just think a lot of people sort of walk around a little oblivious to it, whether or not by desire, yeah?
Another analogy would be if you ever felt like you didn't know what to do with your hands, and you thought you were going to go nuts, and you might twirl your fingers aroundn in weird ways ... Recently had a thread on Gemini's & their hands. (I'm assuming you are Gemini)... I think Gemini Rules Agility, that would include mental as well as having agile hands.
Anyways, I can totally relate ...
------------------
... it's better to light a candle than curse the darkness